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Life Blog Series (Why I am talking to myself) – Part 11 – ( Caravan of Terrible Dejection )


Caveat: Caveats are a ruse. Missing them is in itself like a fix to the incomplete jigsaw. So try and miss most of them. I write and I keep writing till I’m sure my reader can connect the dots looking backwards at the piece. I may not explain my position in full throttle. At some points, I may just leave the point it as it is, like the way I just did.

It’s a little bit off track from what I decided to write upon 5 minutes ago due to the recent developments hereby. I have been a humble provider, learner and exchange-r of knowledge in my university for the last 4.5 years and I have not seen such a state as I am today. I never liked the word “throng”, though it doesn’t mean anything very bad but whenever it’s used in my context or I’m anyhow related to the context of usage, I feel a gust of wind of negative connotation uprooting me due to its condescending implications. It according to Merriam-Webster means “a densely packed crowd of people or animals” and mind you, it doesn’t have to signify a purpose as to why. It hit me today that my peers had lost the purpose of their education by selling themselves to the top recruiting firms who visited my university for job placements today i.e. Monday, 1st December 2014.

I don’t want to suppose a moral high ground as I was a significant part of the process till I got rejected by the 2 firms I had enamored a small dream of getting into but as usual, rejection at times can trigger an eclectic variety of emotions as opposed to success. “If you want something, it can be done if you really want it”. Well, how many of you agree with this statement? I hope you all do but it deserves an analysis from the vantage point of someone who failed despite trying hard. Doesn’t it?

I thought that rejection and the dejection following it deserve a mention in the ongoing life blog series. So I am writing this piece at 4:45 AM (Indian Standard Time) after a very fruitful interaction with my colleagues who sat for the interviews, some of them who were hired and many of them who are facing impending rejection in the results about to be declared in a few hours from now.

Preparing yourself for a job is indeed the same simple basic notion with which industrialization began in the world, which is briefly defined as the period of social and economic change that transforms a human group from an agrarian society into an industrial one. An industrialized society need either those people who are ready for the job, or those who are willing to get ready for it. Individual dreams other than being a live working contributor to the industrialized society is a different pursuit altogether. You’re welcome to be led astray(as they say) but it will be a tough fight and a long shot that you will make something out of yourself.

How convenient our system has become! Our recruiters pitch in front of us in the following manner and sequence. We have everything ready for you, they say. We provide you schools for education. We provide your parents a job in order to educate you in our schools. Then we provide you opportunities to work with us so that you and your progeny can exit this cycle. Those who can’t make through the only exit route have to keep continuing working small time jobs living the life we decide for them by implementing, affecting and manipulating grand policy decisions which have far reaching and deep rooted, sometimes inconceivable impacts on our economy, hence on our lives.

This doesn’t mean that I turned tables on our recruiters. I’m as curious to know about job life as those who applied for top notch jobs hoping they could make that cut being among the 50 odd people who would be the stars of tomorrow by grabbing fat pay cheques from them but unfortunately(not sarcasm) couldn’t. I hail from a middle class background like many of them from my university who after the recruitment process finishes, will own up to the fact that competition between us itself has failed the very purpose of this institute, the very integral part of which was peer learning.

We learn to compete. Well, that statement doesn’t sound very well to me. Does it to you? I want to stop at this juncture so that the reader can draw his/her own conclusions from the piece. My motive is not to drive a certain kind of anti-passion towards recruitments but a proper analysis at your part will give you an articulation of your purpose in looking for a job. Even if it’s only for pursuit of money and nothing else, It doesn’t disqualify you from being in the position of thinking for yourself. Does it?

I am very sure that many readers of this blog have no clue of what I am talking about but since this topic is as close to me as Ganges river to Gangotri glacier, I supposed that I should give it a mention in the ongoing series.

Stay Tuned for Part 12!


Life Blog Series (Why I am talking to myself) – Part 3 – ( Another Brick in the Wall ? )


Caveat: Life Blog Series is all about floating thoughts at the moment it is being written. Their buoyancy may be questionable but their content, Not! You may or may not connect to what I write. Okay, let’s write. 🙂

Rather than making use of my pompous linguistic artillery to heck with your brain, I am just beginning with the lines to give you a hint of what’s to come in today’s life blog series- “Another Brick in the Wall”. Yes! I get what you’re thinking and yeah, I don’t want to be one either but eventually why do we end up being one is something to be deeply pondered upon dimension of life. Don’t you think so ? I think you certainly do.

I am not the kind to make exaggerated claims about myself but yeah, I am kinda voracious reader. This helps me get a lot of information in a less amount of time. Keeping myself at bay from the cellars of boredom, I usually keep taking dips in the lakes of wisdom here and there. Well, not a very good strategy if you wanna focus on something very dear to you. From my vantage point, every sector of work life looks exactly the mismo – de mierda! I was never focused on a “clear and dear” goal of life and this post has to have some undertones of regret, though I don’t seem to care much given the fact that I am casually smoking as of now, swimming in my mental vocabulary, catching hold of palabras that portray my emotions in so much as a correct manner. I have to admit that at my age of 22, I am not someone who is looked up to as a holder of the baton of next-gen in any sphere of life. Does that make me another brick in the wall? To some extent, yes! I am not living up to my full potential and that rings in my ears every single day of my life. May be you do too. That’s pretty much it.

I have had “not so witty criticism” from good people in the field of literature “complaining” that my writing does not possess even the beginning overtures of coherence. It’s all disconnected piece of statements having no connection to the main theme whatsoever. I disabused myself from this notion years ago after I started to write. I understood that writers when begin to write have simple things in mind. It’s just that I haven’t reached the so-called “puberty” of concoction and complexity yet, which let me tell you I’m not a big fan of. I write things which make me write them. I have always believed that the art of digressing your reader does not come easy, it can’t be academically taught and learnt, though that is what lawyers do but that’s not the point here. Plots in their real sense should be woven by the reader and not the author per se which is what I have been working on of late. It seems curbing the mental independence of my readers if I tell them what to think or how to go along with a line of thought which is fundamental to what I think about fascinating literature.

I will return in a few hours with the Part 4. Stay Tuned!